Not The Ordinary Ebb and Flow

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Since the last time I wrote on here life has changed from the standard rhythm that I had been experiencing. For one thing I got married. Even if large portions of my life are similar there are certain things that changed dramatically and things that I’m still figuring out. While there are things that have changed there are also some things that have stayed the same. Some good and some bad, but I have an upcoming opportunity to examine all of the things in my life. In doing so I need to process some things for me.

One of the things that I’ve really been thinking about lately is why I haven’t been writing as much as I used to. Some of it was that I feel I don’t have a ton to talk about which isn’t really true. Part of it is my schedule has changed a little bit, but is also a big excuse. Part of it is just getting out of the habit of doing it every day. But for me the biggest thing has been losing a reason for why I started it in the first place. When I originally started writing the honest truth was I just wanted to see if I could actually do it for a whole year. The unknown challenge of it made it interesting. Some of the posts truthfully sucked and some I felt were halfway decent. Regardless of the content the goal was more just to see if I could actually do it.

Lately though I’ve found that I’ve removed some of the things that were core to helping me when I first started. I’ve removed the challenge, I’ve removed the systems, I’ve removed the accountability. Yet it wasn’t only in writing that these things were disappearing. There are times when I’ve had all of these things over the last few years but as a general whole I’ve lost almost all of my challenges and systems. Part of removing the systems stemmed from an idea to see if removing and rebuilding would actually provide the structure I need while also still proving flexibility and priority for me to make decisions in my life. However, in removing the systems I at some point forgot to add back in some of the systems and now find myself at a point where few if any exist. I don’t think I’ll ever 100% go back to where I was with systems, but if you’ve ever seen my library you’ll know that systems are one of the things that I take pride in.

So the purpose of this post is to be a challenge for myself over the next couple of weeks to report back on some of the systems, experiments, and challenges that I’m reintroducing into my life. I’m posting it publicly for the potential that some people might read it and use it to hold me accountable. If that sounds of interest to you or if you just want to see/hear more about my experiments and/or systems please follow up with me.

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