There is a song called Mood Rings by Relient K that is well about getting girls to wear mood rings so guys could understand what emotions mean. In the song they describe what various colors mean and they describe clear as perfectly emotionless, which is interesting because unfortunately that’s how I feel most of the time. It’s not that I don’t want to be passionate about everything or show emotion, it’s just sometimes I get so caught up with the day to day of life that I just don’t have that vehicle to really display emotion through. Maybe this blog is some expression of emotion, we’ll just have to see.
I also think that part of this numb emotionless, is the overwhelming media presence in society today where there are just so many bad things and so many good things happening simultaneously that we are just overwhelmed as to what to really feel. For example, you might have one friend who has a baby or a birthday the same day that someone else moves away or has a loved one die or get sick. So how do you feel sad and happy? It therefore leads to just numbness as you don’t know what to feel so you don’t really feel anything.
I’m not depressed as nothing is wrong, I don’t feel sad, it’s more I just don’t know how to respond. Sure there are times when I show emotion. Sure there are times when I probably am depressed. However, the point is that sometimes society feels so overwhelming that I just don’t know what to do. I’m trying to work on having things to be more passionate or emotional about, but that’s not always easy. When you have a bunch of mundane tasks, it’s not always easy to be super passionate about it. On the other hand, I don’t want to become too disingenuous and always act super emotional. So it’s finding that spectrum, finding that balance, and being appropriate to every situation.
What are you emotional about?